Jun 1, 2016
It's already June...good god. Are we already halfway through 2016?
- Summer came at us fast. Literally overnight, I was sweating in my sleep because my apartment traps heat and I didn't have an a/c unit. It's so hot. Even in the middle of the night. I'd wake up sweating and throw all my blankets and shirt to the ground and lay there as still as I could. Nope, didn't help. Special shoutout to all the generations that made it through life without the a/c.
- I turned 26 a few weeks ago. I celebrated it by eating through New York City with my sister and switching jobs and then taking some days off to go on an epic GoT marathon. I'm so emotionally exhausted. This show just loves to hurt you.
- We found 2 cockroaches in our apartment so far. Coco and Roro. Pretty sure all of their extended families are already nesting somewhere within these walls.
Quick break for happy thoughts, because f roaches.
- I've been obsessed with The 1975's new album and particularly with this song, at first because it's got some sick jazz gospel vibe but also because of the piercing lyrics. "If I believe you" is basically written from a perspective of a nonbeliever, or maybe an atheist, who is struggling with the notion of religion and spirituality, challenged with seeking higher power and purpose in life. As someone who grew up Christian, I can't say that I haven't had my doubts and struggles in believing in all the religious customs that are obvious to religious church-goers. For me, it wasn't so much about believing in God as it was about feeling accepted in the church. There was always a standard to maintain, a way I was expected to be as a church-going Christian Korean-American girl, and I disagreed with a lot of the things that were preached to me because it didn't feel like some of it was about God anymore. But of course, that's just one of many experiences people sometimes have with religious institutions, and churches are not perfect because no one is perfect. But the struggle is real, and I thought Matthew Healy did a great job of capturing that struggle.
- Photo: somewhere in the East Village, Dec 2015. Fujifilm 400 + Nikon FM10.